Our first few days

I have so much to say and do not know where to begin. I knew when she got here it would change my life but I cannot get over how incredible it feels to know her. She in so many ways is the little woman I came to know in my womb. She gets hiccups fairly often, kicks her feet out when she is frustrated, and makes little movements like a kitten when she is content. I felt all of this while she was in me but had no idea how connected we already were until now.
She is the most beautiful person I have ever met. Her eyes make my heart melt and I love the feel of her skin next to mine (and am incredibly jealous of her darker coloring). She hates to have a dirty diaper and the only thing she seems to hate more is the process of having it changed. She loves feeding time, the sound of our voices, and the beat of our heart. Nothing has ever felt as good as the moment she calmed down because she could hear my heart beating. How many times in your life will someone feel better just because you are near and your heart beat feels like home?
Being in the hospital together was such a special time. It was great to have visitors, the extra help from the nurses, and time with Ben in the room. But at night when everyone left and it was just the two of us I loved it. We spent the first night sleeping nose to nose in the bed together. If I could have that time to freeze in a bottle and keep forever I would. I hated the hospital bed but I loved having abundant help waiting on me hand and foot, and plenty of time one on one with Abney. Priceless.
We are having some struggles now that we are home. All of us are trying to learn how the new system works and be patient with one another. The boys love her already and are being good about giving her respect and space. But with all the trials that come with adjusting to being home it has also been wonderful. I love having her next to me and watching Ben with her. As always he has been great through all of this and it 100% dedicated to his girls. If we need something he is going to find a way to make it happen.
Well, like I said I have so much more to say but as I am trying to learn...when the baby is sleeping I should be sleeping. She was in her crib for about an hour and a half but between the four dogs in our house and people coming and going she is now laying next to me. We are watching Sex and the City, the movie. Yes, I am starting her young on the rules of labels and love. :)